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So I have a ton of posts that I have yet to finish!! But this one is short and sweet! I need to better manage my money! I'm spending like I don't have a care in the world...when clearly I do!! I need to do better! Much better! I need to go to the bank and invest money and then stick to a budget for real! I just need to be more responsible! It's not a joke anymore! I need help! I can't keep living like this! I'm terrible!

I have been thinking a lot about society and this put yourself first mentality. I understand taking care of yourself first but it just feels like to me that most people have forgotten about community. I'm honestly just tired of us as people being selfish!! I can't take it anymore and yes I am including myself in this!

I have yet to write a post about my Greek affiliation. I have mentioned it but I haven't really gone in depth about it. So here it goes: I am a proud member of Zeta Phi Beta Sorority Inc. Growing up I always wanted to be a Zeta but when I got to college I was exposed to all the other sororities. For a brief minute I thought about joining another organization but after research I realized that Zeta was for me. The one thing that stuck out for me was their ideal of Finer Womanhood. Growing up and understanding femininity was difficult for me. Zeta spoke to me because to me they're was no mold of what a finer woman should be. Yes there are guidelines (i.e. poise, grace, compassion, etc.) but those could all be possessed by women of different styles and sizes. That meant a lot to me. I honestly love my Z Phi B!! So please don't be surprised that I'm a Zeta or tell me that I don't look like I should be a Zeta!! I take offense to that because what does a Zeta look like? C...

Most people can't tell but internally I'm basically a maniac! Not the delusional type but the worrying type! My mind is always racing, I'm always thinking, I'm always concerned, I'm always self-Conscious, etc. Here's a glimpse into what goes through my mind a day... 1. Body image: How do I look to others. What is their perception of me? Does it really matter? What is my perception of myself? Do I measure up? 2. God: Does he hate me? Why am I always pushing against him? Will I ever be consistent with him? Am I really be called to do what I think I'm being called to do? 3. Being single: Why am I? What do I have to do in order to not be single? Am I ready for that? Is there something wrong with me? There is a huge part of me that hates being alone! 4. Grad school: Am I ready for it? I'm excited for it! But nervous at the same time! Will I be accepted by anyone I want to be accepted by? Will I fit in? Am I making the right decision about what to study? 5. GR...