And just like that.....

I LOVE MUSIC!!! I'm not sure if I have made that clear but music has played a major part of my life. I'm still a musician at heart and can not wait until the day when I play my cello again. Needless to say that is not what this post is about. You ever have this conversation with a friend or someone you thought was a friend? Person A: Yooooo, Artist x is my new favorite artist!! Person B: Really?? He isn't your favorite I have been listening to Artist X since is first album!!! Person A: Oh, well I just heard his new single on the radio and have been listening to his songs all day! They're dope!! I'm really feeling them!! Artist X is my new favorite. Person B: *mumbles to self* I hate these bandwagon fans man!! Person A: -___- So, someone explain to me why Person A isn't allowed to like artist X? Is it really a big of a deal to be EXCLUSIVE! Yes, I have been ride or die for some people does that mean when someone else hops on the metaphorical "bandwa...

Dear 'thief in the night': There are times where I don't think about you ever and then there are days when I just can't stop thinking about what you did to me! It's unfair that you are able to have this power of me after so long. There are certain times when I'm triggered and can't explain this to anyway. I feel alone and isolated because of this experience. I am trying to forgive but it seems that every step I take forward, I end up taking 7 more backwards. I hope that one day I can regain that love for myself that you stole away from me. I just want you to know that unfortunately you're not forgotten!

In light of the Troy Davis "execution" today I have been thrown into thought. I have heard a lot of people belittled for just now joining the fight to grant this man Clemency. What? Why? OK, so there are some (myself included) who were not enlightened about the case until recently. Does that make them any less committed. I should feel ashamed that I wasn't aware of this issue until later on. That, to me, just doesn't seem right. I wonder if during the Civil Rights movement were the earlier activists looking down on those who joined the fight later? Or if the the volunteers who weren't able to help in New Orleans immediately, in light of Hurricane Katrina, were belittled for coming down a year later? Or maybe the protestors of the Vietnam War who added their voices later on were shunned by those who were against the war from the beginning. I would hope the answer to those questions are no! It shouldn't matter when you join the fight but that you're there...

If anybody knows me they know that my relationship with my father didn't begin until I was in college. My sisters and I grew up with our father until I was 5 yaers old. So I have always known who my father was. When my mother decided to take a job in Los Angeles I became separated from my father. I'm still not sure why but we didn't speak much. He made the decision that we needed to be with our mother; which was fine but he didn't need to be so MIA. I am not here to bash my father. It took some time, conversations with my Pastor, and lots of prayers but our relationship is growing. Mostly I realized that my father didn't owe me anything. Yes, he is my father but what did he really owe me? Should he have been there? Yes. Were there better ways to handle situations? Of Course. Does that mean I have to hold a grudge against him? No. It took me a while to get to that point of understanding but I'm here now. Now, I'm able to communicate with him because I was ...