And just like that.....

So, today I was supposed to have an interview for a management position at Trader Joe's. My Captain (the head honcho) and every other mate I work with is throughly convinced that I would make a great mate. It took months for them to convince me that I would make a great mate and I finally decided to go ahead with the interview. I have been trying to keep it under wraps because I don't want everyone to know but today my Captain made an announcement that I was going on my interview. Not really the attention I wanted but oh well. I get into the interview and the first question they ask me is if I'm ready to be a Captain. And that's when it hit me...NO! I'm not!!! I kind of had a mini panic attack in my mind. I don't want to spend my whole life with Trader Joe's. Maybe this isn't what I want. So, on the drive back I got top thinking...maybe this doesn't mean this will be my life. Why not just use this as a stepping stone. I'm not back in grad sch...

I hate to lose friends but I guess there's a first time for everything. I take such precaution before letting people in that if I really consider you a friend it's basically for LIFE!!! #nolol I just feel really bad because I recently lost a friend in a situation that just seems so pointless to me. I was wrong on some things and I admit that. I just wish things were back the way they used to be. Unfortunately that ship has sailed. I just wish them them the best in all their endeavors because I know they can accomplish great things if they can see what others see in them.