And just like that.....

Along my rebuilding journey I have been really struggling with the concept of self-esteem. I have never really thought I was pretty. Not that I think I'm hideous I just have never thought of myself as attractive. I just don't know how to get there or explain to people how I feel. People have always told me that I'm a pretty girl but I just don't see what they see. I want to, I just don't know how.

    In two days we will all be celebrating the ball drop and remembering that you write 2012 instead of 2011!! I have never done a big New Year's celebration. My family and I just have a mini celebration at the house. This year I get to join a few friend's for a celebration at someone's house!! Par-tay over there!!! Anyways...that's not the point      I have always wondered why everyone waits for a New Year to make resolutions. If I plan on bettering myself or making a change I don't want to wait for a new year to make changes. Why not tomorrow? What's wrong with going into 2012 already a new person? I appreciate the concept of, "a new year, new me." Personally, I feel that on July 7 I should be able to make the same resolutions.      Instead, we should be focused on making new habits...everyday. If I noticed that I have been lacking in faith and need to be more prayerful I shouldn't wait until the new to change that. I should find a w...

     I came across this quote in a friend's blog and I haven't been able to forget it. It just lingers on my mind like words I should have said. I have always wondered why reading is still stigmatized. What's wrong with reading a good book every once and a while? Why are children teased for having library cards and walking around with freshly uncreased books instead of shiny new game systems? What does it say about a people when their prized positions don't consist of literature?      Personally, I have always loved to read! It's always been one of my favorite things to do. My mother made it a huge point to make sure that we had access to all types of books. Granted, when I got to college my reading for pleasure declined because honestly, who has time for that?? No, but really! Now, that I have graduated from undergrad I have had a little more time to sit back and read! Let me tell you, I missed reading. I can't imagine a world without books! T...

Rape is never a fucking joke!  I will never understand how people can continue to make jokes about this topic. I just can't deal with it....no matter how I try to ignore it honestly bothers me. It is not, nor will it, ever be funny!! Ever!

     In our, "we need everything now," society people have grown impatient. We hate waiting. It's a hassle to wait for a response to a text message, phone call, or email. There is no reason why we should have to wait for a grade to be posted or sit in the waiting room for the doctor to see us. Aprrentaly, there is just no valid reason to wait.       Which probably explains this recent aversion to dating. Dating equates to time! Time to figure out if you really like this person, time to go/plan dates, TIME, TIME, TIME! Now-a-days the process goes like this: 1. You like me? 2. Good I like you too!! 3. You want to be my boy/girlfriend 4. Great! We're a couple now!      Hopefully, you all see the problem with this! There needs to be a 2.5 and 3.5!! Just because you're physically attracted to someone doesn't mean you're compatible. Hence, taking your time to date (the 2.5.) People need to take time to figure these iss...

I have been off of work since September 19th and one would think that I would be losing my mind. While there are days I am sitting in my house pulling my hair out I have been surprisingly content. Which is more than a blessing. I have been able to take care of myself and not stress too much. So with that being said here's the rundown: 1. I have a freaking cast!! I have never broken anything so this is new to me! I HATE IT!!  Mostly because it's on my dominate hand and my whole life has been complicated! All of this for a torn/out of place tendon. Which mind you I hurt in July! Either way I'm trying to let my wrist heal and all that jazz. Just know that because it's hard to type it will be harder for me to post. 2. I just received another heart break. I have really been trying to not let this bother me but it's hard. I have always been good enough to be a friend or almost a Girlfriend but never that. At some point you stop thinking that something is wrong with ev...

I will be on groupie status in a week!!! I can't wait!! Wale released "Slight Work" ft. Big Sean today! I LOVE!! I'm telling you groupie status!!