And just like that.....

At times I feel that I'm completely unwanted. Like no one wants me or will ever be interested. I'm never quite good enough. And I have been told numerous times that this isn't the case but it's really hard to believe that when time after time things just don't work out in my favor. So, my joke about being a dog lady just may really be in my future.

Say what? Naw. Play boy i just don't want you!! Why is that so hard to understand. You just happen to not be my type. Which means for whatever reason (cornrows, gold teeth, grammar, hygiene, etc) I'm just not that into you.  Explain to me kind sir, why it's OK for you to not be interested in ole girl because, oh say, she wore an orange shirt today. But not alright for her to not be interested in you because you drink purple Gatorade? OK. I'm exaggerating just a tad but you catch my drift. I have the OPTION to not be interested. I'm not trying to sound uppity because I'm always super flattered whenever anyone finds interest in me. That just doesn't mean that I have to like, like you because you're attracted to me. So, don't come for me with this belief that because I'm not interested in you that I don't like men! No, sir I just happen to not be interested in you! And now there is no way I ever will be! EVER!!  I understand that your eg...

"You have a habit of letting people hurt you and instead of addressing it head on, you harbor anger/hurt and talk about it." Look. One of my best friends just read me like, "The Cat in the Hat."

I haven't really been blogging a lot lately. Mostly because....well I don't have a valid reason why. Just haven't really had much to say I guess. I figured I would give a little update on life up to this point: 1. I have finally registered for classes at NOVA. This community college down the street from my house. I am finally getting serious about taking classes and preparing for the GRE. I'm well on my way now. I'm actually quite excited about starting classes. I've always loved school. 2. I finished reading Kite Runner. And boy was that hard. I wasn't prepared for the content but I'm proud of myself for making it through the entire book (especially since I have yet to finish The Lovely Bones.) I had many a revelation while reading this book which have been difficult for me to accept. 3. My birthday was splendid!!! I went back to Atlanta and had a grand time as usual. 4. Recently a really good friend of mine have become more distant. It bothers ...

I am reading this book. The book is really good but it's extremely tough for me. I started reading it with no knowledge of how difficult some of the content would be for me. I'm determined to finish it. I won't be defeated like I was by 'Lovely Bones.' But it's still really hard. Just really hard.

The Michigan Difference. If you know a Wolverine, past or present, you have heard this saying. All Wolverines pride themselves on this difference and being the Leaders and Best. The question: what is this difference we speak so highly of? Coming to Michigan we were the top of class. Albeit athletically, scholarly, or financially. For most of us high school was not a difficult task. Personally, I breezed through high school. I didn't have to study and most things came easy to me. This was not the case when i got to Michigan. I struggled for a lot of things at U of M financially, emotionally, physically, and grades. And I know many of my classmates had similar struggles. We became self-motivated, determined fighters!! That difference is FIGHT!!

Yesterday, I found that my Aunt Lou (my grandmother's sister) passed. This is my first time dealing with the of someone so close to me. When my sisters and I spent summers in Detroit we spent a majority of our time with her. It has been hard for me to deal with mostly because my grandmother has lost both of her younger sisters. The only thing I can think of is that my grandmother being the oldest is going to be gone soon as well.