And just like that.....

So, today I was supposed to have an interview for a management position at Trader Joe's. My Captain (the head honcho) and every other mate I work with is throughly convinced that I would make a great mate. It took months for them to convince me that I would make a great mate and I finally decided to go ahead with the interview. I have been trying to keep it under wraps because I don't want everyone to know but today my Captain made an announcement that I was going on my interview. Not really the attention I wanted but oh well. I get into the interview and the first question they ask me is if I'm ready to be a Captain. And that's when it hit me...NO! I'm not!!! I kind of had a mini panic attack in my mind. I don't want to spend my whole life with Trader Joe's. Maybe this isn't what I want. So, on the drive back I got top thinking...maybe this doesn't mean this will be my life. Why not just use this as a stepping stone. I'm not back in grad sch...

I hate to lose friends but I guess there's a first time for everything. I take such precaution before letting people in that if I really consider you a friend it's basically for LIFE!!! #nolol I just feel really bad because I recently lost a friend in a situation that just seems so pointless to me. I was wrong on some things and I admit that. I just wish things were back the way they used to be. Unfortunately that ship has sailed. I just wish them them the best in all their endeavors because I know they can accomplish great things if they can see what others see in them.

At times I feel that I'm completely unwanted. Like no one wants me or will ever be interested. I'm never quite good enough. And I have been told numerous times that this isn't the case but it's really hard to believe that when time after time things just don't work out in my favor. So, my joke about being a dog lady just may really be in my future.

Say what? Naw. Play boy i just don't want you!! Why is that so hard to understand. You just happen to not be my type. Which means for whatever reason (cornrows, gold teeth, grammar, hygiene, etc) I'm just not that into you.  Explain to me kind sir, why it's OK for you to not be interested in ole girl because, oh say, she wore an orange shirt today. But not alright for her to not be interested in you because you drink purple Gatorade? OK. I'm exaggerating just a tad but you catch my drift. I have the OPTION to not be interested. I'm not trying to sound uppity because I'm always super flattered whenever anyone finds interest in me. That just doesn't mean that I have to like, like you because you're attracted to me. So, don't come for me with this belief that because I'm not interested in you that I don't like men! No, sir I just happen to not be interested in you! And now there is no way I ever will be! EVER!!  I understand that your eg...

"You have a habit of letting people hurt you and instead of addressing it head on, you harbor anger/hurt and talk about it." Look. One of my best friends just read me like, "The Cat in the Hat."

I haven't really been blogging a lot lately. Mostly because....well I don't have a valid reason why. Just haven't really had much to say I guess. I figured I would give a little update on life up to this point: 1. I have finally registered for classes at NOVA. This community college down the street from my house. I am finally getting serious about taking classes and preparing for the GRE. I'm well on my way now. I'm actually quite excited about starting classes. I've always loved school. 2. I finished reading Kite Runner. And boy was that hard. I wasn't prepared for the content but I'm proud of myself for making it through the entire book (especially since I have yet to finish The Lovely Bones.) I had many a revelation while reading this book which have been difficult for me to accept. 3. My birthday was splendid!!! I went back to Atlanta and had a grand time as usual. 4. Recently a really good friend of mine have become more distant. It bothers ...

I am reading this book. The book is really good but it's extremely tough for me. I started reading it with no knowledge of how difficult some of the content would be for me. I'm determined to finish it. I won't be defeated like I was by 'Lovely Bones.' But it's still really hard. Just really hard.