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Excuse me I have something to say!

So I was reading my bestie's blog the other day AND she had this very genius post and I'm stealing it from her. Here goes nothing:

Person 1: Our relationship is estranged. I have been trying to make it stronger and at times I am very promising and others I fail miserably. I owe you nothing but thanks and gratitude but there some tough issues that I grapple with. I am trying to come to terms with a lot of tings. Please don't give up on me.

Person 2: Since we have met you have done nothing but make my life more enjoyable! My experience would not have been so great if not for you. I have watched you grow and mature into an amazing young woman. And at times you are an inspiration to me! Thanks for allowing me to call you my friend...cause I know not all get that privilege. You're simply the BEST.

Person 3: I started a new journey about a year ago..and somewhere along this road I have gotten stuck in a ditch somewhere. You see at some point I am supposed to forgive you for what you've done to me. Which is hard because a large part of me still hopes you burn in hell! I don't want you to have all of this power but you still do. I just hope you were never given the chance to hurt another person like you did me! I'm making progress and one day I will be able to forgive...

Person 4: God I still love you. And I wish I didn't. I learned a lot from you. And I'm so grateful to have you in my life. But there are days when I still want all my questions answered. I mostly just want to know what could have been. And why there was never a second chance. I still think that there is no one who will make you happy like I did. Maybe that's selfish of me but hey I'm being honest. I just hope you don't realize this when it's too late. Whenever that may be.

Person 5: So we became really good friends in a short period of time. I was surprised by that seeing that we both have some nice sturdy walls built up around us. You have hurt me and I forgave..I'm still trying to "forget"..not having the most success with that one though. I just hope that you realize the true meaning of friend. And give it to those people who truly deserve it.

Person 6: Boy we have a come long way. I never thought that I would see the day where we talked on a regular basis! I'm so thankful for the fact that we were able to build this relationship. I just hopes that it continues to grow and become stronger. Thank you for trying! It means more to me than you will ever know! I love you...

Person 7: What to say to you? Well you've come a long way. It's amazing the steps you've made towards bettering yourself. I hope that one day you will be to look at yourself and see the beautiful and amazing woman that everyone else sees. It takes time and you're not even half-way through the journey. But I commend you on how far you have come! Keep it up!

Person 8: Well this isn't really one person..but looked as one so I guess it counts. It hurts me that we all aren't close. I want to be able to talk to you all everyday. But at times I seem forgotten. I know we all are different and that's what makes us so special but can a sister get some love? I hope that we can get over what anthills are blocking us from this bond! Because I really love you!

Person 9: How dare you! I can't believe after all that we've been through that you would think I would ever do anything to hurt you. I tried to let it go but I don't know if I can. I mean you let someone come in between the relationship that we were supposed to have. I hope you and this other person end up being happy together forever. And I hope you find a back bone and a voice. Cause people aren't going to speak for you forever. Trust me I had to learn the hard way. But either way I give up..I'm not putting forth anymore effort!

Person 10: You are the best anyone could ask for! You have given me more than I could have asked for! And I mean that. Yes you made mistakes but that's what happens. There is no manual for these things. We are close but I feel that we should be closer. I still can't talk to you about things that plague my heart because I'm sure how you will react. I hope that we can work on this together. Just try and stay positive because you have the tendency to sway towards the negative! Everything in life isn't bad!

Person 11: I tried to instill in you the things that were instilled in me. And for some reason that didn't quite stick with you. I don't want you to all these lessons the hard way but it seems that you might! Please just gain some respect for those that came before you. They may be irritating with their critiques but the knowledge they have is endless! Just be willing to make mistakes and grow and learn. That's the best part.

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