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So here's the deal...

Right before I go to work today I get this, "We should just be friends" text from this guy who I have gone on a couple of dates with. First of all it was a text..like I'm not even worth a conversation! You couldn't have answered the phone when I called or picked up the phone to call me and discussed these so called family issues. Second, I believe that this family problems excuse is some BULL SHIT! We just had a conversation about how I'm uncomfortable with the thought of sex and blah blah blah and now all of a sudden you're having family problems? When less than 24 hours ago you were expressing to me how much you liked me! BULL SHIT!! I just don't understand how it's so effing easy for everyone to be my friend! I'm grateful yes but nobody wants anything more than that.

I have never been one of those all men are dogs women because I refuse to put them all in that category...but come on!

I just wish guys would take the understand me as opposed to just dismissing me because of my past experiences. It's times like these I feel even more damaged and unwanted..

But a text though?
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