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I have been off of work since September 19th and one would think that I would be losing my mind. While there are days I am sitting in my house pulling my hair out I have been surprisingly content. Which is more than a blessing. I have been able to take care of myself and not stress too much. So with that being said here's the rundown:

1. I have a freaking cast!! I have never broken anything so this is new to me! I HATE IT!!  Mostly because it's on my dominate hand and my whole life has been complicated! All of this for a torn/out of place tendon. Which mind you I hurt in July! Either way I'm trying to let my wrist heal and all that jazz. Just know that because it's hard to type it will be harder for me to post.

2. I just received another heart break. I have really been trying to not let this bother me but it's hard. I have always been good enough to be a friend or almost a Girlfriend but never that. At some point you stop thinking that something is wrong with everyone around you and begin to look at yourself. All I can say is that hurt especially since I liked said person. Oh well.

3. I'm so ready to be back at MI!! I'm ready to feel at home, see my friends, start grad school, and get started with my career!

4. I need my cello in my life! I never felt so lost and sad. I can't wait to actually make music again.

5. I have amazing friends and family! I want anyone who I consider a friend that you mean so much to me!

6. I GOT NEW GLASSES!! I love them!! Everyone keeps calling me a hipster but whatever!! They're grand!!

7. As people may know I am a Wale Stan! I love that man! Like i really want to be his best friend and discuss lyrics! So, on 11.1.11 I was too hype! I have listened to Ambition pretty much everyday since I got it. I love Wale's lyricism but I felt like the album lacked a story. It just felt like songs. I'm used to more of a story from him. I made a playlist of Ambition, Cole World and Finally Famous!! Best idea ever! 

That's all I can do right now....my wrist is saying it's time to stop


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  1. josie reneeDecember 30, 2011 at 11:43 AM

    For some reason i'm drawn to your romance post! LOL. But I suffer from number 2 syndrome as well. I attributed it to the fact that I am outgoing, and sassy when men want someone quiet, docile, and sweet.... I tried shielding myself but by the third date all my sass came out! I think the key is this.... date around, date multiples, date, date, date... there is going to be someone out there who appreciates you on a bigger than friend level. Treat yourself to a month of dressing up and smiling.... there are so many men out there that we let pass by while we are chilling in sweats (which are sexy in their own right). Finally, don't let this bring you down. When you are being placed in a friend zone, you KNOW it..... wishful thinking allows you (and I) to continue on hoping they will see how cute, funny, nice we are but they see it, just not as a girlfriend -- keep it pushing.

    xx
    josie
    www.straightnochase.com

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