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Just stop and paint a picture/Contemplate

So this past weekend was the Art fair. And seeing that I am never up here for the festivities I decided to join some friends as they did a mini walk through. Which I have come to discover was a good and bad thing. While I was able to pick up a few cards of some great artists I realized that I wasn't able to do the art fair justice. What most don't know about me is that I LOVE art. And when I say I LOVE that just what I mean. I have such an appreciation for the time, thoughts, techniques, and emotion that goes into a painting, photograph, film, sculpture, musical note, combination of words and any other art form I may have forgotten. The problem I ran into was that I never took the time to go look at things for myself. I never stopped to just look at a picture let alone finish the one I have been painting.

As stated I am a lover of the arts and one of favorite types is music. I am more of a soul/R & B type of lady. Don't get me wrong now when Wacka, Gucci, Jeezy. or Wayne come on the radio I can get just as hype as the next one but there is something about the musicality and words of R & B songs that just gets to me. With this all to say I have never had a favorite rapper...well until now that is! I am glad to say that I have discovered WALE!!! Being placed in the The Area introduced me to Go-Go which at first listening did not move me! I was completely against it. And then I met Wale, well not him, but his songs. And I was in love. I don't get googly-eyed or obsessive over famous people but some how Wale has managed to do this to me. Not because I want to do ridiculous to him with the lights out but because I would do anything to Marry his words! Have his lyrics surround me..sit down and have a conversation with him. That kind of obsession...which now reading it back to myself sounds just as crazy but alas. I think what gets to me the most about his songs is that I can relate. Not just the, "Oh it sounds like he's talking about me," way but the, "I know somebody just like that," way!!!

So why I steal a song from his debut album Attention Deficit to entitle half of my blog with? Because well I have been contemplating! Lame answer I know but true all the same. See a lot of his songs on Attention Deficit were about beautiful women who don't know their worth. His words spoke to me. While the experiences are different I understand these emotions all the same. There are days where I feel inadequate not just in terms of the opposite sex but for myself. People don't understand the gratitude of my self-dislike. Most people think I'm just fishing for compliments (as the seasoned people would say)! If only this were true...

I'll get back to this point another day but until then "Just play this ish while you contemplate"
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