And just like that.....

I was born in Cincinnati, OH; moved to Los Angeles, CA; then to Mt. Prospect, ILL; and finally to Alexandria, VA. I have visited many other places in the United States (Vegas, Orlando, NY, Chicago, Detroit, Ann Arbor, DC) but that's not enough. I want to travel the world.

When I was around 9 or 10 my mother told me that her and my father were getting divorced. I WAS DEVASTATED! i couldn't understand what I had done wrong to cause this to happen. My mother made sure to explain to me that it was nothing I had done but she and my father just weren't working out anymore. I just didn't understand. Once the initial shock of the news wore off what hurt even more was the fact that my dad became absent from my life. He didn't call, write, nothing. It felt to me that he just completely forgot he even had children. I hated him for that. I couldn't understand why he would want to hurt me like that. For the majority of my life was father was never present. He missed major moments in my life and hurt me until no end. I thought that I would never forgive him. He has never heard me play my cello, he didn't see my graduate from Jr. high school (I went to a predominately white Jr. High that's how they do things), he miss my high school graduat...

As u all may know I spent a pretty little penny purchasing a pair of Beats by Dre solo headphones. And I have been questioned numerous times by people on said purchase. Everyone keeps asking me are they really that special? And my answer is HELL YES! The purity and sound that comes from these headphones is orgasmic! This post is not meant to brag about my splurge purchase but to talk about the music. Some of the first songs I listened to were songs that used real instrumentation. I listened to India.Arie, John Legend, Alicia Keys (Songs in A minor I can't bang with the new A Keys), Stevie Wonder, and other artists that have REAL music! But what really got me was when I listened to Montagues vs Capulets by Sergei Prokofiev!! I just can't explain to you how Amazing it was! I felt like I was sitting in the middle of a concert hall! Now I don't know if Dr. Dre intended for me to listen to classical music through these headphones but I did it anyway! I loved it! With all that be...

This is a question I ask myself on a regular basis. And the typical answer would be no. I have never considered myself pretty. There are time when I see myself in the mirror or look at picture and wonder if that's actually me. I know exactly where this stems from and I'm not fishing for compliments. Which is usually the response I get from people. They either try to help me figure out why I believe this or tell me to be quiet I should know I'm beautiful. And honestly I don't. I wish people could comprehend that it's so hard for me to think highly of myself. I just think that I'm average. Nothing more just average. I long to think of myself as gorgeous, beautiful, pretty. Someone that men and women alike were in awe of their beauty. I just want to feel beautiful and don't know how to....

I'm not too sure what is up with me. But right now my heart feels like it weighs a ton! I should be thrilled because I'm going on a trip this weekend. But I guess I just have some things on my heart that I haven't released. Today I have been bothered with my job. I just feel so under appreciated and over worked. At times i feel like they all the work I do goes unnoticed. So today I decided to speak up and express how I'm feeling about something and then I feel as if I was made to feel bad. I mean I never take breaks I never think of myself and when I do it back fires. I'm just worried now that people won't take me seriously now. I'm just over this job. And necessarily in a negative way but I think it's time for me to move on. I need a job related to sports to help prepare me for grad school. For a while I was feeling kind of good about myself. I have been working out a lot lately and I've been pretty consistent. There was even a guy who showed inter...

I recently heard that Detroit Public Schools were going some really hard times! And that really upsets me: 1. Because a lot of people close to my heart were educated in DPS 2. Education is so important to me. It's one of the biggest injustices to me to deny people an education! I love learning! And I mean LOVE!! I feel that everyone has something they could teach me and I'm willing to learn it! But I also thoroughly enjoy formal education. I was the weird child that enjoyed going to school. As much as I stressed during my days at U of M there were so many things about it I enjoyed. I just wish that the government would realize the importance of education and how much of a dis-service they are doing America by taking education away from youth.

I have always understood the difference between a want versus a need. Growing up in a single parent home with two younger sisters I just always told myself that there were things I could live without. And at times I still have that mentality. But I must say that right now I want and need a car. Sharing one with my mother is stressing me out. We have conflicting schedules and I feel bad that I am dictating what she has to do with HER vehicle! I'm also tired of staying in every night. I want to go out and be social and I would do that with my car! But I don't feel comfortable driving all over The Area with her car! So I need a car! It doesn't have to be new...or have all the fixins...just not too many miles and doesn't need too much work! I would be happy! Oh yeah I would like it to be ALL BLACK!! I just think that it would be so sexy!!!