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Random thoughts....

1. Sometimes I just wish people wouldn't tell me certain things. They either make me feel dumb or cause me to think about things that I don't want to.

2. Today in church my Pastor preached about being ready for the upcoming season...and that got me to thinking. Am I ready? I mean I have been trying to expand my faith and yet I still feel like I'm failing. I just feel that I'm missing out on something. A lot of what he said pertained to me. I feel like I'm not prepared for the next "season" that God has planned for me. I can't really say that I know what path my life is being moved towards. And this scares me. Because I don't know if I can let everything go and let him have the reigns. Now don't get me wrong he has always provided for me in a way that I probably don't deserve and I am beyond thankful. I just feel stagnant...

3. I really don't want to be one of those bitter women that is unhappy about everyone's happiness but at times I can't help myself. I just don't fully understand what I do wrong. It just really bugs me sometimes....

4. I really LOVE the Big Ten like love it but I think I might to have to make the SEC my mistress!!

5. If one more person speaks to me on the topic of rape like they have all answers or an understanding when I know they don't I just might go to jail for assault. How dare you tell me how a person should act after that experience? You have no idea...I promise!

6. It pains my heart that there is still so much hate in the world. I just wish more people would care for someone else other than themselves!

7. Great number...but besides that one day I will spend my whole day paying it forward.

8. Inception was a really great movie! I can't stop thinking about how invasive an idea really can be!

9. I really don't want to grow up! It terrifies me!

10. I feel so alone sometimes. Even when I'm around people.

11. I need to finish these paintings and fix my cello. I feel empty now that these 2 things aren't in my life on a consistent basis!

12. Right I should be studying but instead I feel like crying....
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