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After Bible Study last night something hit me; that I have the tendency to be apathetic about things that happen to me in life. I'm willing to just see what happens. Which at times can be a good thing but I have come to realize it hasn't been working for me. There are some things that I need to be more proactive about:

1. My relationship with God. See it's not just enough that I am saved. There is way more to being connected to God then going to church one day a week and telling people that I'm a Christian. While I'm not going to be perfect there are numerous things that I can be doing to strengthen and expand my faith. Beginning with what I do at home. I have always thought that it was possible to just read the Bible once maybe twice a week, pray when I was need of something and everything be OK. This I have come to realize is not true. In order to have the relationship with God that I desire I need to be in constant communication with the Lord. And this has to start today. I need to set aside time everyday that is just for me and him. Where nothing of this world can distract me from him which I know I have a proclivity to do.

2. What I believe my career goals are going to be. I have always loved college football! Which I have explained in previous posts and have dreamed of working in that field at some point in my life. But when I arrived at Michigan I tucked those dreams under the reality that I was an African American female and probably wouldn't have any luck in such a male dominated field. Even though everyone around told me that I could be the first I wasn't convinced that I was able to do that. Explaining why I decided to be a Sociology major (which I can say I'm slightly unhappy with that decision). But that's besides the point, the point is, I can't expect to sit back and have things fall in my lap. I have to be ready to put in work!!

It's time to get my mind right...get my head in the game...and any other sports cliche one can think of!

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