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"Do or Don't Do! There is no Try!"

I learned this little saying about a year and a half ago. And I have to say that it can be very useful. I am trying to motivate myself to do all the things that I need to be doing. Making some New Year's resolutions before the New Year.

1. Start going back to church. I never knew that leaving my church family could be so hard! I miss them...I need to find a new one but I have been shamming!

2. Get on top of Grad school and the GRE!! I think I'm just scared to go through applying and preparing to be in school again! I know that if I don't I will get antsy soon because I'm not really a person that likes to just sit there and do nothing!

3. 2 months ago I sent a letter to the first female football coach and have yet to hear anything back from her. And I know that I need to send a follow-up letter. I just haven't yet...

4. I went and bought new running shoes and workout pants in the hopes that this wold motivate me to be more diligent with my health...and to an extent it has. But I need to push myself over the hump and I just haven't done it!

5. Volunteer!! I just feel like a bum on my days off from work! I keep telling myself that I need to find someplace to volunteer my time but I haven't really looked into many places.

6. Get in contact with this lady about a new job. I have loved Trader Joe's because they have been so good to me. But a part of me just can't take working there anymore! I'm tired of pretentious people looking down on me! I'm over bagging and stocking groceries every single day! I try to hold my complaining to a minimum because God knows I'm thankful to be employed!

7. Get my cello and start playing again! Now all of this isn't on me! But I need to be persistent with people. I WANT my cello so bad! Maybe I should act like it!
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