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Brand new ish/Seems like forever is a mighty long time

So here goes nothing......

These past couple of years have been..well..something. I have been trying to journal and haven't been very successful. And then it hit me....I should start blogging. I type twice as fast as I write and therefore I can keep up with my thoughts. The sad thing is this means I jumped onto this band wagon MAD late!! Which seems to be a trend for me...because while I'm just getting the hang of this most bloggers have moved on to more sophisticated blogging techniques. But enough about me being a late bloomer so to speak let's get to the good stuff....

May 1, 2010 marked a monumental occasion in my life. I sat on the grass of the Big House and listened to the President of the United States congratulate me on my accomplishments up to this point. My mother, father, grandmothers, aunt, uncles, friends and others sat in the stands and applauded me. At the end I was enraptured with what I was going to do with my life next. I told myself I was going to stay in Ann Arbor finish these last measly credits, get a job, prepare for grad school and move on with my life. And then...well then reality hit me like a 50 ton pound of bricks. Michigan has a horrible job market, you have no job, you have no place to live...what actually is here for you other than your friends (which mind you are very important to me)...NOTHING! I almost got into an all out brawl with my mother about why I needed to stay up here only to realize that I had no real reason. Something is telling me to stay...but every other force in the world is telling me to head home. Right now I don't which one is right. Irregardless of that that fact I am still headed back to THE AREA (DC/MD/VA.

Everyone keeps stressing to me how much they will miss me. And while I'm wholly appreciative of all the love I think that people forget that I'm the one leaving ALL of my friends! I'm just one person in their lives..and while I don't believe I have had that much of an impact on everyone's life like that I'm the one losing more. Just about every single friend that I hold dear to me resides in AA or surrounding areas thereof! What am I going to do?? I guess this is a state in reaching adulthood admitting that my mother is usually right. Well most of the time........

But yeah let's just say forever is a mighty long time.....and I will most definitely not be gone forever....a min...but I shall return
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  1. BSJuly 26, 2010 at 11:05 PM

    slang kilos of coke if you need a job. But seriously, good read!

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  2. REAJuly 27, 2010 at 9:28 PM

    hmm, to BS. moving on, elena, God's plans are AMAZING. we don't really know what's in front of us until we walk into it. i am amazed at my life path thus far - much of which was not planned. go with the FLOW! losing friends sucks, but gaining perspective and self feels oh so good! keep us updated on the happenings hun - God bless pumpkin!

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