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Growing up is hard to do..

I think that I have out-grown a friendship.

The thing is I don't know what to do about the situation. I mean I care about this person and at one time cared about them as more than just a friend but I'm not sure where we are right now. I mean in reference to our friendship. We started out as friends and then things evolved into a relationship only to disintegrate back into a friendship. Not that anything is wrong with that but right now I'm sure if I want to even be friends anymore. And no nothing terrible was done to me, I don't hate him or anything, actually he's the only male friend that I tell my deep and darkest secrets to, but I just don't know anymore. As much as I have grown I feel like he hasn't. Yes, he has gotten older, gotten involved in a new relationship, and even ventured onto grad school. With all of this he still seems stagnant. The same issues still keep him up at night, he still makes the same comments, his thought process is still the same. I get tired of the same conversation every time we speak. I used to get excited when I got a text or phone call and sometimes now I don't even want to answer. And to me that seems harsh. I mean this kid has been there for me when I know he shouldn't. So it kills me feel this way but at times I feel that something is changing about our friendship.

Or maybe something is changing about me
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